As our own family gets closer and closer to the day my son will marry (we are one week out), I am finding that I am getting overly emotional. This is great because it gives me a really new understanding of what planning a wedding feels like from the other side or the emotional side. Of course everyone worries about the details and if everything will get done. That is the item everyone knows to worry about. I now wonder though how many wedding vendors or family members really consider how emotional this is all going to get. I can barely make a decision without thinking of its significance, and once I truly internalize the significance of each thing, I get super emotional.  I have always had a lot of patience with my clients because I understand that they have never done this before. It’s a lot of work to try and organize and plan a wedding. However I have never really thought to give them an extra dose of patience just because they are under emotional stress. Sure its crossed my mind that peoples emotions are running high, but I have never actually really thought about what it feels like to be a MOB, or even one of today’s brides.

Because I am an event designer, I know not to worry about all of the design stuff. Our studio will get it all done because that is what we do, for me right now its the emotions that are killing me. Realizing that my son will belong to someone else, imagining that my little boy is taking his vows simply makes me cry, add to that seeing my other son be a best man, my daughters be bridesmaids, my baby boys be ring bearers, and then my little girl be a flower girl.  Its like a sentimental over load. I think I have shared that I cry a lot, I mean it, I’m serious, I cry a lot. Like nothing you have ever seen before. Tears just fly out of me and there is no off switch. I guess I should be embarrassed about this, but its something I have just accepted about me, its like the color of my hair, or my eyes. I was born with the water works!!!

My husband asked me today, why can’t you just be happy, he asked this when he saw me crying. My crying is in no way an indication of my happiness or lack there of. My crying is a direct result of feeling so much. I simply can’t stop feeling, so I can’t stop crying. I can clearly see my face on the wedding day contorted up with tears running down my face, sorta like it looks right now. Poor photographer Genevieve Leiper, she will be unable to catch one non crying moment of me. I am also thinking of the joy I will feel when I see my sisters, their kids, MY AUNTS, my uncles, my cousins, and mine and Evan’s parents. Time is precious and this chance to be together is very special. I wish I could shove our entire family in a room together, lock the door and throw away the key. There are too few days in our life when all of our loved ones are with us. This is why a wedding is truly special!!!!!

Wish me luck as I try and get my emotions in check, and the final details under control.

  • Debbie Says: (09.28.2012 | 01:11)

    I love your creativity with nature’s bounty and have attended a wedding you designed. (Library Bride) Following your blog has inspired my creativity, even though I am not a floral designer….but this subject I relate to! Having given away first a son, and then a daughter to wonderful spouses…I HEAR you! The emotion is raw and right below the surface. The implications are huge, AND YET, it is the natural flow of life and I am SO thankful for their lives and the progression of family ‘birthing’ a new family. My thoughts are with you and may the happy tears flow for this wonderful event. May you all be blessed at the expansion of your family!

  • Kristin Says: (09.28.2012 | 01:31)

    Such a beautiful family you have! God bless you all in the final week, and blessings for your son’s wonderful marriage! 🙂

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  • Pam Morris Says: (09.28.2012 | 07:49)

    You are such a loving person. There is no shame in loving your children as deeply as you do. They are truly our greatest treasures. Cherish that very special day with all of your family. I cannot wait to see the pictures of the Chapple family wedding.

  • Janice Says: (09.29.2012 | 11:39)

    Holly, I miss you and I love you! This family has so much love in it and the wedding is going to be incredible. You are truly an amazing lady. I am in Europe for our babymoon right now but I’ll write you in a week or so. Much love to you and your family. 🙂

  • Margaret Says: (10.01.2012 | 04:54)

    Holly, What a beautiful family you have! I’m sure your son’s wedding will be amazing – I hope you take the time to enjoy it! Best wishes to you and your family on this wonderful occasion!

  • Lisa Says: (10.02.2012 | 01:18)

    Cry away, Holly – experience it all, the joy, the bittersweet passage of time, the laughter. How wonderful that you appreciate having all your family together – you are right to celebrate and feel every single moment. Thank you for sharing your beautiful creativity and your full life – your blog is a huge bright spot in my life.

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